Doesn’t it sound like the title of a good movie - maybe it already has been a movie - I don’t know. But the reason I thought about this I have to tell you the whole story but I’ll try to keep it short. My dad abruptly left this earth February 28, 2007! Of course I was devastated - we all were! My biggest concern was that he didn’t know the Lord. I had resolved that it was all in God’s hands and left it at that. We had much to do - plan the funeral, the church service, clean out and empty dad’s apartment. While cleaning the apartment we came across a book. It was a book I had mailed dad a few years ago. When he got it, his first reaction was “what am I going to do with this”. I said “Dad you don’t have to answer the questions just - write your life!” To be perfectly honest I didn’t know if he would but as the months went by he would say “I wrote some more in the book today”. Long story short when we found that book in his apartment I wouldn’t have traded it for a million dollars. There were words of my dad’s life that were pricelss! Oh yeah I forgot to mention that my mom died forty-one years ago, so not only were there important words about my dad’s life but words about my mom too! Words that were never spoken after mom died because back in those days you just didn’t talk about the dead, especially these poor young children’s mom’s death! “They” didn’t know we needed to know! Well Dad finally left those words for us. And some of the best words he left were that there was a hope that he WAS in heaven. I still don’t know 100% but by words in the book I have a peace and a hope that I will see him one day walking on the streets of gold! “The Book” means so much to all three of us children and dad’s brothers and sister too but it makes me think about THE BOOK, the only book - you know which one I mean - The Bible - how important are these words. These words from our Father in Heaven - how awesome is this wonderful book that God wrote just for us!

I’m sorry I don’t mean to dwell on the grief I am feeling but it is not just for me - it is for my brother and sister too. Lord, how can I help them heal. I know it is not my responsibility. I don’t want them looking in the wrong place when I know there is a God who is THE COMFORTER! He is beyond comprehension to those in need of that void!

I think about the “ifs” but you can drive yourself crazy with that so instead we must live in the “now”. We cannot change what has passed therefore we must make better the “present” God has given us. Think about those times you wished you’d called someone but you didn’t, the time you didn’t say “I love you” before you hung up. So we must live each day as a special gift from God with no regrets.

Some days I cannot help but question - is God there? Of course He is - what a blasphemis question I suppose. But when you SUDDENLY lose a loved one it cannot be helped! My dad suddenly left this earth last week and we didn’t get to say good-bye. It is a very hard thing. Still I know God IS there. He helps fill that hole in my heart that is there.

May 12 2007

In all that has transpired in the past few months that same question keeps popping in my mind - where is God?  We know He is here but yes there have been days and will be days when we do not feel Him.  But it is in these times that we really need to be in close proximity of Him!  He is so much bigger than we can imagine.  The death of innocent people and we think “where, why?”  - we cannot help but ask but God has a bigger plan than is even in our realm of thinking!  Even in tragedies God has a plan for His good! All we say and do is for His good. Praise Him even no especially in the hard times.

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Ever wonder what God is doing in your life? Ever feel like He’s not there? We shouldn’t! Although there are days when we feel that way we know better! What is it we’re not getting? Pay attention - God is talking - listen up!

To God be the glory!